Life Came Knocking

Omg this blog has been yeeeeaaaars in the making. How long have the important people in my life said "you should really write something for people to read"? Or "you know, I can really relate to your writing"? And how long have I said "But I don't know what to write...."? Or a million other excuses not to take a chance and put myself out there. Well, today I draw a line in the sand. Today I start writing. Look at that! I wrote a handful of sentences! I am successful already!

Well. This is going to be an exploratory space for me. I have had creative juices brewing for quite some time, and am not clear how to let them flow. Or which direction to send them. So I am going to figure that out, here, with you.

By the way, some of my story might spill out on these pages. Maybe the part about how I grew up thinking that unless I was "perfect", I was an utter and complete failure. About how I needed to know I could nail it, or I would not even try. And about how I ignored the whispers that there was something new waiting for me, for a very long time.

Everyone has a breaking point and mine came on April 21, 2023, with a cancer diagnosis. I am stubborn, and reluctant to change as long as I am relatively comfortable (and willing to exist with the interior discomfort of knowing that there is something new waiting for me). I had ignored the whispers until Life came knocking and required me to take a dance with cancer. At that point, I had to decide whether I would let the big C fill up my dance card, or whether I would clear it and make space for something new. You know the answer. I am clearing my dance card. Watch out baby, it's time for something new.

P.S. This may become self evident, but I feel the need to comment that I don't know what the heck I am doing here. I have long been a privacy freak and now I am going to share my inner world with the rest of you? And it may be messy and I may obviously be a "beginner" at this?....Yes. The answer is yes. Be kind, my dear friends. Please and thank you.